Calm In the Mist of Chaos

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Photo taken at 233rd St, The Bronx, NYC

Standing at the platform edge in a tunnel, a man with a blue knitted hat leans over the edge to check if a train is coming. Only darkness is seen, he steps back and shifts his weight to his left leg. He looks around and sees the long faces of his fellow train riders, waiting, as they type away on their mobile phones, one woman looking at her face from the front camera. He shifts his weight to the other leg, something pinches him in his pocket. As he reaches in, he frowns questioningly at a half bent paper clip. The screeching of iron on the tracks grabs his attention as a train pulls into the station. The people and the man gather by the train door, they make a small opening for people coming out.

The train car is filled with all types of people, lucky for the man he’s entered a train that has no air conditioning. A small baby crying in the distance from discomfort, laughing teenagers discussing Pokemon cards, a woman with a disgusted look on her face — most likely from the heat. Holding on to a tiny portion of the handrail, an asian woman with a large backpack rocks back and fourth hitting his chest. The man’s frustration slowly escalates as there is no where for him to move to, no air to breathe. He notices the tension in his right ankle as he stands awkwardly to keep his balance— the train swaying this way and that way. The smell of armpits in the air, he tries hard not to breathe too deeply. Swirling the paper clip in his other hand he hears angry chatter of how hot it is in the train, as if it’ll make it any cooler he thinks to himself. He closes his eyes.

He feels the thinness of the paper clip, following the curves with his thumb, the muscles in his shoulders release as they drop a little. Slowly his feet position themselves in a way that he’s able to keep perfect balance— slowly moving the paper clip between his pointer and middle finger. He begins to see a light pouring out of his chest like a small waterfall, bouncing off the ground, the light flows, filling up throughout the train car. The light streams out of the windows, like fire blowing in the wind. A puncture of light comes out of his back, flooding the train car more. The white light, seeping through the connecting doors, finds its way, filling up each of the ten train cars. He can see the entire train as it appears to be blaring down the tracks, spraying white light at each station. Ripples of light radiating from his body, each person drenched in brilliant white light. He feels tingles in his toes as his fingers on the handrail loosen.

The man opens his eyes. Only four people are in the train car, lips hanging from their face, fast asleep. He realises he missed his stop. He looks down to see the paper clip on the floor, no longer bent but in its perfect form. He sits down, picks up the paper clip and rides the train until the end of the line, allowing his day to end when it feels like it.

Light Show 2 (Originally 22-Aug-2014)

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Taken at Washington Square Park, NYC

On another night shoot with Laura, this time at Washington Square Park. Lightsabers, flowers, fireflies and large rats were in the nights festivities, although the rat part wasn’t controlled, I feel like NYC rats are getting bigger and bigger these days.

This photo was done with the dark side light saber and 1:30 minutes of exposure time. I took slow steps moving around with the light saber. Laura, along with the people walking around, watched me move gracefully as I wanted to spread the light around this area of the park. I even found myself holding the light saber like an actual samurai (since I’ve watched so many samurai and sword movies), making distinct postures. I could feel the sense of power holding this fake weapon and imagined myself as a warrior wielding his blade in a vigorous practice preparing for war. I lost myself after a few seconds and just allowed myself to be engulfed by the moment. The pattern that’s made, me think a little about Thunder Cats, similar to the TC symbol of red and black. There was something very prominent about the red, it just seemed powerful, alive and in your face. We had a blue light saber but it wasn’t as dominate and it was pretty weak (sorry about that Obi-wan).

I’m finding that these night shoots are becoming more and more interesting, and I’m starting to think I like doing more things when it comes to playing with light in this way. Stay turned for the next light journey!

The Lonesome Rebirth (Originally made 04-Dec-2014)

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Photo taken in Winchester, England

It’s been nearly five weeks since I began living in England, and my lifestyle has definitely taken a huge turn. Adjusting to how local people talk, their mannerisms and even walking on the left — coming to England is like being reborn.

I’ve had to depend on my wife the entire time, leaving me kicking and screaming, powerless in moments when I would normally do things on my own. Day in and day out I’m seeing a person who is my lover, friend and boxing buddy. The playground of married life is indeed a big one, where opportunities to be alone are very slim, but, in those moments, wanting to be together the very next second. It’s an adventure shared by two people who are in love.

After spending a session in the shower the other day, I came to a very interesting conclusion regarding this aspect of my life. I saw it as me being a child again. You know, where you had to rely on your parents to get everything for you, give you money and ask their permission to do and organize things. In my situation, where I am living with my lover and starting a whole new lifestyle, it’s like my past life as Kevin Lewis, all of those emotions and experiences, needed to be integrated before coming into this new life. In many ways I can look back with approval of my past, because it has brought me to this point of expansion; there’s a sense of enrichment that filled my body.

Being in NYC, I spent a lot of time alone with myself, to think, feel, experience and witness a multitude of things. Now, this new journey has, in a sense, switched my north and south poles, so that now I spend time with my wife in those multitudes of situations which I had previously experienced on my own. That in itself is very exciting and I’m glad to keep moving forward.